Have you ever felt yourself being stuck between a rock and a hard place? Maybe your mind in the battlefield? Lately, I've been going through what I would call spiritual warfare. That's when the devil is attacking or shall I say TRYING to attack and devour me. They say the mind is a very powerful force. It can either Enslave us or Empower us. It can plunge us into the depths of misery or take us to the heights of ecstasy. Lately, I've been feeling as if my mind alone had me imprisoned. I hate my job and I know I don't belong there. But lately, it was a different hate towards my job as if I had mentally "checked out." I didn't care about anything from my appearance, being late everyday and I'm talking 30+ minutes to the point where my manager had to ask if I was OK and provide me with a warning. I am in the mortgage industry and I am great at what i do. However, its not where my heart desires to be.
I am a free spirited individual who really just want to travel the world and give back in anyway possible. I really felt like giving up on life. I didn't care if I got fired, there were times I would go out side for a fresh breath of air and think about not coming back in to work. BUT GOD! Let me tell you, He is AWESOME and I really just want to share with you what He has been doing for me these last couple of days. So I decided to draw near to Him. I was praying for and feeding my mind and body with the word. So I decided to read the book of 1 Peter and I came across this one verse that literally changed everything. Its 1 Peter 2:13 and it reads " Submit to every Human Authority...." How can we expect Him to bless us if we are not being obedient to his word? How can I want God to place me in my field of interest if I am not submitting to my manager, and the work place policies? So, that very next day I started waking up on time. I never wake up on time for work. If I have to be to work at 8:30 I am rolling out of my bed at 8:30. So God has been waking me up so that I can leave on time and for the past three days I have been on time. I don't even think about how much I hate my job. I just go to work and I am as mellow as can be. I am actively working and no longer complaining. Most importantly I am very thankful for my job because without it I wouldn't have been able to cross some adventures off of my living list.
It's very important for us to just place God first in everything, pray and feed our mind and body with the word. For some years now, I've always wanted to blog but I've always doubted my abilities to do so. I've always had self doubt and one of my favorite verses in the bible is James 1:8 " An indecisive man is unstable in all his ways" I've been unstable in all my ways far too long, from relationships, emotions, spiritual life and so forth. I no longer want to be that person. So anyways, as I continued to read the bible (drawing close to God) He placed something in me that wasn't in me before. It was the energy to sit for three hours without touching my phone or getting out my room or just being distracted period, so that I can work on my blog. I wrote a lengthy blog (Red Lips, & the number 6) that I never thought I would have the ability to do. He is working on me and you don't have to wait years before you see your blessings. Well wait, I lied if you aren't making him your focus then you will wait. He already know what our hearts desires and He want to give us everything we ask for but we must work for it. I've been wanting to blog for years now. I created blogs but never pursued it after creating it. It wasn't until a few days ago that God started blessing me with he things my heart desires and thats because I am feeding my spirit with His word. You may think its small but these things are major to me. If he can do it for me He WILL do it for you. Just have faith. Before, I was just praying but thats all I was doing. Prayer sometimes is not enough. James 2: 17 Faith without works is DEAD. Not only should we be praying but we need to feed our minds and souls with His word and be consistent with it. Until next time.....Peace and Blessings.